Once your mouth says, "i don't love you anymore", our closeness was lost. Should i be happy? This was my goal and i feel terrible. Once one of her closest friends into a aquaintance or just a "friend". I lied about not loving anymore when in fact i love her more than anything in the world. It's benefitting me alright but you know, i miss her, i miss the times at the cottage, and i fucked it all up. Love is destructable, it almost led me to my own destruction. Now i'm watching those around me hurt from love and gain love. A girl, last time i seen her, beautiful, now because of a breakup, hate and sadness fills her. Another girl, cheated on, and still stay faithful to a man who is going to do it again. I try to help but all i can do is watch, watching one so close to me crumble.