Hate, a word with equal depth as love even though they are opposite. A word as controlling as love. You fall in love, you feelings toward that person could not be changed. You would do anything for that person. You are driven into madness...hatred. You enjoy the sight of misfortune of that particular person. Like love your feelings would not be changed about that person. That hate could lead a person to have a homicidal mind. A murder done in cold blood, with no remorse, done with your mind fully intact.

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A showing of the depth of hate. True hatred starts as a dislike but then progressively diminishes your mentality. However, you make no action to face the issue. The girl mentioned in the article...did she ever make an attempt to face her father, talk to him about her problem with him? Nothing was mentioned of effort. Only the conclusion that she must kill him to end the building of pressure in her mind. A sad event that could've been avoided. A horrible reality of what a simple word could lead someone to do.

I look again in the past. Love was treated so much differently by me. Immaturely used, stupidly used. I look farther. Events that occurred were what i thought. My instincts told me what to do but did i follow them? At first yes but later on no. If i had followed it the outcome to where i am now may have been completely different. But will that change been worth it? It would've. Where i am now, love fuels me. My love for my friends. My yearning to help them. The special care i have for that one person. I look farther back then. My friend had problems..i didn't listen to him when he needed help. I regret that to this day. Every event teaches you something. Sometimes in pieces and sometimes at full force. My lesson i learned overtime "always keep your friends close to you, always be there for them, never let them go". First it was a friend i had rejected. Then it was my father whom past away....the effect if you disconnect yourself from everyone. Then it was that one person, one whom i care for most. Something that i do have that motivation and care to help. That i can actually help. The finishing touch, smoothing out the rough edges, making the lesson go at full effect. I thank her, she has yet to realize the depth of my gratitude and my love for her. A new year with a new view. The potential to actually make a difference in my current life and help those who are in need. A new start to a new life.

I'm disgusted. Is it a chore to say i miss you or i love you to your spouse or current love? From what i see it actually seems so. It's stupid. Our world perception of love is lost.

Love if you don't realize is a destructive force. Love pits you in a false reality where everything seems perfect. The false reality makes you into a hypocrit where only you and your love exists. The belief it's only you and your love, ruins everything around you. A disconnection from your friends is one example. You only pay attention to whom you love. Your friends don't matter anymore. I, myself got this destructive force put on me. After it happened to me i'm seeing those who are in the same place. I want to help but that gesture of help ruins the friendship that already would soon break. My instincts do tell me to watch and that what i listen to. The maturity of love is what moves you away from these actions.

Someone has recently said they missed the summer. It made me think back. I do too miss the summer. Even at it's conclusion i still missed it. The summer was my self realization, my test, my motivation, my heartbreak. During the summer i grown more closer to the people i love most dearly. I even fell in love. That summer was my most important summer. The one that made the me the new man i am now. My perceptions, reality has matured in front of my eyes. I look back, i miss the summer. I miss the days when i was with those i care for. Something to look forward to. Next summer, those days would be back, days when reality didn't excist, days when nothing didn't effect us, days when only us that mattered.

The question still rises up. What the hell is love? Everywhere i look now, it's love. The internet is filled with love. I was hanging with my friends, i saw love on the street. People's problems, false perceptions on love. The pictures i look at, some with true love and some with bullshit i can't stand. Heck even movies with true badassness even had love i couldn't even stand. Is what i see love or is it the after effects of being a complete fucking idiot with such a delicate word? As a old entry said "love could ruin you, break you down or make you better".

love and hate

Two of our deepest emotional words. Love and hate. Both words we don't know the real meaning to. Only our perception of what the words mean. Hate is easily the most evil word. How evil is it? If you hate someone you would be able to kill them without emotion and physcologically, you aren't insane. Even though love and hate are complete opposite how they are brought upon is different. A soldier is led to hate the opposing force. With that hate they are able to kill without emotion. The few notice the horror of war and the hatred that fills the battleground. The hate that for years was forced upon their minds. The two polars of the world..love and hate. Those are what society is made of. Those things balance out our world. It seems shitty but it's balanced. With only hate our world would be dead. With love our world would be prosperous with no dislike.

Media log...content is related to media

The 7th key to media: "form and content are closely related to media". You could also tie this in with the second key to media: "media constructs reality". The 7th key basically means that the media has biased opinions on reality, and their views are usually regarded as fact rather than opinion. An event that recently occured, the computer hackers known as "anonymonous" is a perfect example of media expressing only their opinion than fact. Well the story in a nutshell. A bunch of hackers cause havoc on the internet. They grossly ruin peoples website (myspace), promote racism, spoil the ending for harry potter etc. They call these acts "lulz", a distortion of "lol". Fox news did a story and the conclusion was that they are bored and have nothing better to do. Shortly after the group sent a message to fox showing their true intentions of the group. Fox gave the opposite reason and people ate it up. Here are links to both the oringinal brodcast and the message sent.

Brodcast: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DNO6G4ApJQY
message sent: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RFjU8bZR19A&mode=related&search=

Media log....Media contains valued messages

The 5th key to media: "media contain ideological and value messages". A fact that is often ignored by the sterotypical audience. Movies, cartoons, music all have meaings to them. Family guy ,even though the comedy is soo random, has moral meanings on life. Heres a list i think are common themes found in each mainstream genre of movie with a movie title example.

Romantic comedy: "A failed relationship always leads you to whom your true love is". (the holiday)
Action: "If you put your mind to it you can conquer the impossible" (die hard)
Horror: " Always follow your instinct" (wrong turn)
Chick flicks: "love fuels our world, without it we crumble" (a walk to remember)
Comedy: " You can make the best or even fix up a situation if you have a optimist view in a bad situatiion" (norbit)
Mystery: "instincts are always right" (csi)

Some themes i discovered while watching my favorite t.v shows, movies etc. that relate to the 5th key of media. Critique what you watch. By thinking in a cirtical matter these themes would come out at you like a bullet.

mass media log..commericials

An obvious and easy topic to talk about. The 4th key to media: media have commericial implications. Millions of dollars are wasted to put worthless ad into our equally worthless minds. My main question regarding this, do these ads work? Yes. When your on your computer or watching t.v you are gullable, open minded and easier saying "dumb". As our teacher Mr.Chaze said "a good video usually wins an election". How does this relate? The more interesting the product is and how it expresses his hardcore nature it attracts the comsumer. Gears of war (a popular video game) is a perfect example for this. This game is hardcore. The ad for it is equally hardcore but with a sensitive side to it. A more pessimistic look to war, much similar to themes shown in "all quiet on the western front". Mainly destroyed beauty. That nature is a getaway from reality. Is the game like it? No, it's a peice of shit on terms of plot and theme. A complete opposite of what the ad was promoting.That ad alone made the song playing into a phenomemon. Itunes was out of stock because this song was crazy. Once the ad was revealed game sales went over the roof.
Ad persuadsion is an obvious ploy of media. It manipulates our dumb minds into buying their product.

Mass media assignment

The 3rd key to media. "The media constructs reality". A theory of life. "You live your life on how you see reality". Since comsumers are easily brainwashed by the media so easily the reality they live is the media's own reality. The view of the media is there own bias opinion, there own view of reality. An example are the t.v shows. Look at cops. Every criminal are the same kind of person. Either white trash, spanish or black. This puts fear into society. Prejudice attitudes towards those select groups of people. Their reality is viewed that all those people are drug dealers,pediphiles etc.

You may not realize but all of us are living part of media's reality. How is that true? Well the stories on the news. You listen and believe it. They are all someone else's views on life. Not your own. Celebrity news is one thing that shows that they are making their own reality. Jennifer anniston, Brad pitt and Angelina Jolie. Majority of that story are made up of "claims" from someone out of nowhere. The conclusion they jump to could never be so wrong, but everyone eats this up.

Media is now the reality that is seen in our world today. Many minds are dumbed down because of media. People rely on something false when they can't make their own decisions up. Media is easily a superpower in society since it could easily manipulate our minds.

Archie

Wow while reading an Archie comic i realized it's true cold hearted nature. Look at the picture starting with the title.

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Think about it. Is it really funny to look at betty during a heart break? No. They poke fun at things that hurt people most. They make love seem like something so small. Actually this whole book is filled with heartless jokes. The page before shows Archie basically playing both his girlfriends. Look at veronica. She plays Archie left and right. Reggie seduces Midge from his jealous boyfriend Moose. Reggie basically is a crazy frat boy. Chuck is basically the black sterotype basically ignoring his girlfriend. The only people with some proper morals are Betty, Jughead and Dilton. An ongoing theme in this book, "nice guys always finish last". My opinion, Archie comics pokes fun at situations that lead someone to break down. The fun in it almost makes these morals more appropriate in our society.

before....

I look farther into the past. It's like i'm a completely different person. Rebelilous, stupid, ignorant, heartless. I look back and laugh at this fellow which was me....before. I happy to whom i become. Someone who can actually be respected in society. This academic year is the test to see if this change is final or if this change is a temporary one like before. I hope for the best but at the same time i gotta prepare for the worse.

All quiet on the western front...opening views

A book i say that really shows the gritty reality of war shown through the eyes of a young soldier fighting for the german army during world war one. The book chronicles the life of Paul, a schoolboy who was convinced of joining the army by his schoolmaster's strong words of encouragement. I just started and right now i'm fascinated how the author which is ironicly an ex-soldier for the german army during the first world war, pulls you in. Even though it's a high school english class book i highly recommend the book.

Opinions on love

The annoying events that happen in life. Either reoccurent events or paranoid douchebags who don't look at anything else but their anger. Love is a reoccurent event. A reoccurent event that gets stupidly annoying. A lot of fear, porblems are powered by love. Iraq, started by terrorist hatred towards our country and the war started by George W. Bush's corrupt love for his country. The annoying jealousy of men. You talk and help to their girl since because you love them as extremly close friends. Then BAM, jealous ignorant immature fuck comes along like you were banging his girl. God. Fear trying to be pumped into you because of love. Yet i haven't explained why love is soo reoccurent. For me, it would be obvious if you knew me otherwise keep wondering. To emphasize a little more on the reoccurence. A love starts, you happy, ends. The fact that all love ends depending on your believe. To me a love will end to the extreme is death. Why say that? Once you die I believe you live an imagination for the rest of your life. Sadly i believe that the thought of doing whatever you want in this imaginary world will make you forget about your love.
Enough said on that. Love basically ends when it's not balanced or one loses love for the other. On the balance part, one may love this person like crazy, one just may like you and there shows an obvious imbalance.

friends

Friendship is something i crave not to end. Something no one can live without. Friendship to me is what fuels me. Gives me my motivation. When they have problems it makes me want to help. Something i learned about myself. I devote my life to any of my friends no matter how close i am to them. To those who are close to me, i risk everything that i am to them. The one who shape who i am today, i thank them. And to return the favor i'll help them in anyway i can. It's funny what one summer can do to you.

dreams of africa

When we are bored we make music and this an example of our boredom.

Immature fucks

I come back from a quick getaway from what i call reality. Be stupid for a little bit, get some air, chill with close friends. I get home and sit back to stare at our world through the eyes of a computer screen. As easy as looking at one thing someone wrote it could lead someone to be extremly lets say...ticked? Well once reading this i just started noticing my anger towards people who claim to be "mature" but actually they could be the most immature people you could find. A dictionary meaning to both mature and immature taken from dictionary.com.
Mature- "fully developed in body or mind, as a person"
Immature- "emotionally undeveloped; juvenile; childish"
As you already see i'm directing my attention to the mental, physcological and emotionally development of someone. It's understandable when a person is young of course but when a person is an adult? Is that even acceptable? To some being serious alone is mature but that doesn't mean shit. Your serious with everything you say. You say you like games. Your fucking serious about that. Your not serious when you're a compulsive liar and doesn't have the balls to say they are. So what makes me soo ticked off about immature people? Shouldn't I just mind my own damn business? Well you kinda can't when it's happening in front of you.
Lets start with some things I hate about it. First, the childish ways to solve problems. By childish ways to solve problems what examples could i give. The immature belief that objects aka gifts would satisfy someone so much that their problems would be a thing of the past. I'll name one example for each. Second, a man (adult) shouldn't gossip like a jr high girl. Holy shit how much would that piss you off when they jump to conclusions and what they say turn out retarded. The outcome may of been correct, but the initial reason for that outcome could've never been so wrong. Yet people would believe that shit. A lesson i learned, if you ever want to spread shit around, never ever jump to conclusions and always know the fucking facts. When shit is spread around people tend to believe the first thing said. Once you try to tell the truth the damage has been done. You are fucked. I know this is gossip. Girls do it but men do not. We keep our cool, get the fucking truth, then fall into a conlclusion that is reasonable, and then getting your view forced out by someone.

An immature person....can you trust them? No you cannot. Initially they may seem like a person to talk to but after you notice then BAM brick wall. You just got fucked by that person because they tell every fucking person every fucking thing you talk about.

The question may arise to the reader, "buddy, to you how the fuck do you define mature?" Well, a person able to think deep enough to tell them straight fact to their face. When in a time of sorrow, you know that childish beliefs won't help a situation. You don't betray your friends. You act like a friend. What do I emphasize most about maturity? The ability to fucking realize what really happening in your life. The damage or repair of your actions. The full effect of everything that you do. To actually know that you are a living being knowing that eventually you will die. During that time your saviour your life. Now after saying something about life i would like to comment on one thing. People who committed suicide, didn't realize the full effect or damage they would soon cause once they kill themselves. They didn't mature. People who have attempted and lived through it has something to move on from. And that point in your life should be the first stepping stone into maturity. Actually a theory may come from this. When all hope is lost and you believe that, it would the a stepping stome into maturity. But that only applies to some. In my opinion the main thing into becoming a mature person is self realization. Learning the lessons in every event in your life would make those themes and common moral make an effect on your life.

Well, continuing the rant. Basically the juvenile behaviour of some pisses the shit out of me. You cannot talk serious with them without them laughing at something so serious. Or even them being concerned of getting lied to when the situation is so much deeper than stuff like that. It's so immoral. The fact i can think more fucking maturly then someone much older than me. It's retarded.

A theory

Well give this some thought. A theory i thought up that completly makes sense. How you live your life depends on how you view reality. Or deeper said, life is lived depending what theme you live on. A true fact that i could relate to. My main theme (my own created one)" your true self will be revealed once the true lessons of your past is realized". Wtih those lessons you understand your stance in this world no matter how small you are.

Improv with mom

A mix of the base song Fallen by Lauren wood and a made up on the spot improv by me. What this songs shows is my creative mind.

Last christmas by kotaro oshio

A song that amazed me. I thank blogger Graham Choo for tabbing this song so others can learn such a great song. When i play this song i think of a lost love. Also a motivation to do so much better in life. That if i pit my mind to it i can do it.

A meaning to work

For me work can be a quick get away from your problems. You concentrate on only your work and everything including reality just blurrs. My getaway from society. Even if your work is Mcdonalds.