Seeing how some always express their emotions for someone on msn, I find it no to be necessary. First of all, a lot of us don't care and second, it's best to keep your emotion between you and your mate. I gladly see your in love but however, we don't have to see. Aside from that, i usually write alot on facebook and now i focus only on romance. Romance is now the new fad of myself. Past the 4chan and now romance.

During breaks from school my social life is put on hiatus. During the break, I am alone, I enjoy it a lot. I get alot of time to think about everything in my life, the best and worse of it. I think of those close to me. I think of everyone else a lot. I never think about myself, until now since I am writing a blog. There are different phases of me. One that just past is the lets hate everyone person and now...a more quiet person whom keeps to himself more than he used to. When at home, I'm quiet and never socialize with anyone, always by myself, I love the feeling. But why do I act how i do at school? Is it a way to get rid of my stress i force myself? The wedding was obvious since i told myself "fuck man, remarried!!". I was really stressed so to lighten myself up i went totally crazy. I remember someone noticing that i was really tense. Even though I enjoy my overreactive self, i really don't' want to anymore. A personality change i really want to pursue.

Love, was seen as small before. The importance of the feeling is strong enough to make one go crazy. Absentmindedly I push off one of my closest friends issue and try to cheer him up instead of helping. Love was said lighty before and I still don't learn the lesson. I like but say love. I confess to fast. Haha, looks like another personality change. Over the past two months, determination and self motivation became a new asset to my personality. I now work out with pain and keep going. Even when i'm tired, i tell myself "it doens't hurt", and keep going. And one girl, someone in my head for a while now, I really want to help but our friendship is strained because of idiot behavior. I want back like how it was before but moving forward is the only way since...we cannot turn back time. Turning back time I think, is something I would do, but would i have what i have now?

OOO SHIT SOMEONE JUST GOT DUMPED!!!

When you're in love you are a fucking loser. However, you can over come this loserness with experience. Right now i'm in love with someone but, with past events, i am not a fucking douche. My friend, from awesome, no care, foolish man to a BITCH! Love filled faggot. He's changed so much i'm going to punch him in the face and tell him to get back in business.

Love is the only thing to balance out me. But of course too much is not healthy. How much is healthy for me? Without someone to to actually care about makes me pessimistic. When i don't care, i don't care about anyone. When i do care about someone, i care about everyone else. Balance, someone to care about but i'm NOT going to look for someone.

I'm fucking pissed. Like on monday i'm swear i'm going to kill everyone of those grade 11's. I was the victim of a sick prank i saw coming but i didn't stop it from happening. I played along but to an extent of sincere kindness. Fuck those fuckers. I swear i'm going to kill those guys. Fuck, right now this is sincere shit. I swear, this is fucked up. From this i swear, people like this shouldn't be alive. I swear they should be gone from life. They are failures. Fuck them.

My stupid little nephew whos only in gr 6 is speaking words about a guy, like she's already in high school. I really want to get her out of it but i know i can't help everyone, and it's her feelings. Since her mentality is quite retarded, all those "guys" are so damn immature that soon to be, she'll be hurt from her own damn stupidity. As a caring Uncle, i had already explained to her to have fun as a kid, and not to ruin your life with this. This led to an almost insanity, someone's suicide, hatred, everything you could think of, led to that because of love. But what about me now, since something's been stuck in my head for so long. its possible to get out of it, after my horrendous summer of surprise, i think i can surpass what i've done and keep a smooth mind to it and keep control of my body, mind and soul.